Saturday, September 4, 2010

I'm Back

I guess I blanked out about my blog there for awhile. I am back now though and I am seriously on my way to where I want to be. I have been doing Weight Watchers now for like a little over a month and it is really working for me. It is nuts that this way of eating is perfect for my lifestyle and so easy to follow. I am loving it. I am actually able to feel normal on it. The best part is that I have found some restaurants that are WW friendly and oh so good. Ruby Tuesday and Applebee's are my go to places now and their menus are full of options for me. Chili's on the other hand completely bombed for me on the health front. We decided to try them because their fatty food is so good. Well I got the chicken wrap guiltless thing- let me just say the ff ranch dressing they served with it was the most awful thing I have ever had. So I had a dry wrap for dinner due to that and some seriously under cooked broccoli. Won't be back there for healthy things, you can mark that down. Anyways, I'll be back tomorrow with my weigh in!!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Salad Makes Me Nauseous

One of the most frustrating things for me is to decide to eat healthy, go pick up tons of healthy groceries, prepare a salad, and find myself nauseous by the end of it. There is no logical explanation as to why, but it seems when I eat certain foods (salads with a balsamic type dressing or overnight oats) I am fine in the beginning but near the end of the meal I think if I eat one more bite I'm going to be sick. Because of this, my refrigerator ends up full of produce that gets wasted- mainly baby spinach and salad greens.

Aaron thinks it is just because I'm not used to eating this way and that it will take some time to get me used to it. He may be right, and I hope he is. I really feel better inside when I think of what I have been putting into my body lately vs. what it was getting. Surprisingly I have not once been hungry since changing my diet. And when I do get hungry I have nothing but healthy things in my kitchen so I can grab something and not feel guilty about it. I miss certain things but I think once I get going well and have established a routine I will have something I really want one time per week- and not the whole day, just one indulgence once a week. I think deprivation of anything one truly loves is ridiculous and the only reason I am not indulging right now is so I can be sure I won't revert back to my old candy bar while watching tv ways.

Q and Cam just turned one year old on the 26th of June and their eating habits are changing. It really makes me look at myself at the same time and how I eat. Motherhood brings a whole new light to your opinions and how you live. It is time to transition them to cow's milk and honestly I'm not sure I want to. At the least I want to give them organic cow's milk because when I think of giving them regular milk I feel like I am poisoning them. This is crazy I know... I just get scared when I think about all the things in the food today and want my babies to be the healthiest they can be. I want to raise them to have a healthy relationship with food. I know I'm probably overreacting about the milk- I just want to do what is right for them as a mother and it is definitely a learning process.

In the meantime, there are tons of chores I need to do and I am getting nowhere anytime fast by sitting here. Hope everyone has a great day!!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Here We Go...

So I kind of made this blog and then set it aside. Just for the record this is like the 5th blog I have put together to start and then forgot about. I think maybe I keep putting up excuses as to why I can't seem to stick with blogging- well with anything for that matter.

As of late, I have been having spells of feeling sorry for myself and crying over my weight and how unhappy it makes me- also crying over how unhappy eating healthy makes me. How is that for twisted thinking? I guess a part of me somewhere feels like when I can't indulge in that Five Guys burger or those boneless wings from Applebee's then I am not living. I understand this is completely backwards because if I could just get to a healthier weight then I would be able to live more. As it stands I have not been to a theme park or a beach in three years. Three years. That is time out of my life that I can't get back. It is sad when I think about it because instead of getting off my lazy behind and doing something about it I resigned to my destiny of being the fat girl.

Last week, when I made this blog, Aaron and I decided we will be trying to live the Real Food lifestyle from now on. By this I mean we will be making a conscious effort not to indulge in packaged convenience type foods. We will be making the decision to reach for the produce instead of the frozen dinners that have labels full of words unknown to the vast majority of the world. In my healthy mind I know that this is the best way to go about making a healthy lifestyle change- but in my overweight, sick mind I cannot get past everything that has been shoved into my head. You know, the "avoid anything that isn't fat free" kick? It is hard for me to accept eating an avocado and the healthy fats it packs but not hard at all to pick up fat free pudding. What kind of sense does that make? But it is exactly the struggle I am having. Along with another equally frustrating one that will wait for tomorrow.

On a positive side- I feel good that I have made a decision in the right direction even if sticking with it is going to be hard.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

In The Beginning

In the beginning Nicole created this blog...